Namaste

Never worry about tomorrow
Always living for the future
Make today your focus
Allowing yourself to be here now
Settle into this moment
Thrilled to be alive
Ever knowing you are Divine

Copyright 2007
Kim Gelinas

Family

I cry for all that I never had
I mourn for ties that never were
A family lost in dysfunction
Unable to concur

Opportunities for lasting love
For deep, abiding friendships
Connections never created
Instead jokes, fights, quips

Death removed possibilities
Chances lost for good
Hope springs eternal with
Coulda, woulda, should

Her spirit lives inside us
As does her faults and flaws
Sisters unable to bridge the distance
Unable to sheath their claws

Loss should have pulled us together
But instead it drove us apart
Mom's lasting legacy
Sisters who never talk

Kim Gelinas
copyright 2007

Scrolls and Roses

Summer

My epiphany

Sometimes I feel like I'm really slow on the uptake. After being an art student for years and a practioner of meditation (including chakra work), it has just occurred to me that the colors of the chakras follow the color wheel. I had not ever made that connection before today. I was listening to a chakra meditation that I found on YouTube and in my mind's eye, I was flowing along the color wheel, beginning at red. I had made the connection between my chakras and my art. An appropriate epiphany as I start a painting class today. Talk about a lightbulb moment (energy efficient one of course).

Fairy & Flowers

Copyright 2007 Kim Gelinas

Angel

copyright 2007 Kim Gelinas

My date

I did it and I survived. I went on my first date in 21 years. Holy s**t! It was ok. I was nervous but I managed to keep the panic to a minimum. He's a nice man. I'm not feeling lots of bells and whistles but it was a pleasant evening. We ate at the 99 restaurant in a town midway between us. He lives in CT and I live in MA so we met at the border. The problem is that I can still only eat small amounts at a time because of the surgery. I didn't tell him about it so he was surprised at how little I ate. Here I am last night.

Monumental Day

I'm going on my first first date in almost 21 years. OH MY GOD!! I meant him online and we've spoken on the phone a few times. He seems nice so I'm being brave. We're having dinner tonight. I have to run out and buy pants to wear. The pair I was thinking of are too big now (not exactly a bummer). I have to keep reminding myself to breathe. It's going to be fine, right?????? I feel like a teenager again.

Rites of Passage

Nicole has now taken the SAT's. My baby is fast approaching true adulthood. I mean, she's already 18 but is still in high school so I can hold on to her for a little while longer. She took a college course last semester as part of the Early Admissions program and will take two more this coming academic year. She's also applied to my school for their Summer Scholar program. It would give her the chance to spend 5-6 weeks on campus, taking two classes and learning what college life is like. It feels like I just brought her home from the hospital a few months ago and she's taking college classes now. How is that possible?? I am going to have to learn to let go, I guess.